life is full of surprises.

and we have to deal with the consequences of our not so smart decisions.

:(

I'm slightly slow today and bored.

I've been looking all over the place for a new pair of roller skates. I had the pair below back in 2002, but my car was stolen in LA and the skates were in the trunk. I guess I should've bought another pair after it happened, but I was a tad broke and new skates didn't seem to matter much.

Well, I can't find skates anywhere near as cool now and I desperately want them back.

If you know where I can find some help a sista out....

Canary yellow is the new happiness....

My new dress.

Is like sunshine.

Sometime soon it will end up in a great photo.

And G is going to LA.

I'm jealous.

random fact.....

everyday, just one time, at no specific time.....i hiccup.

usually in the afternoon.

love love....

things that involve the word "roller" are so great.

roller skates
roller coasters
road rollers
roller derbys

and my favorite....

hot rollers.

just a thought.





xoxo.

nashville fahhh-lee market

This morning I woke up with the most terrible hangover headache. I guess the vodka tonics last night sucked all of the hydration out of my body in the middle of the night. That's the price I pay I guess for drinking/laughing my ass off for an hour and a half at the Jimmy Fallon show.

Today is beautiful!

There is so much going on.

-A tattoo conference (I was inspired this week to get something on the back of my upper left arm. We'll see if I ever go through with it).
-Estate sales galore.
and.....
-The Nashville Flea Market.

I haven't been to the flea market in years because it's only once a month and EVERY month I completely forget that it's the weekend of. So last night as I was driving I heard the commercial for it and decided that I was going to go. If you've never been, it's at the Tennessee State Fairgrounds (HUGE) and brings in all walks of life. You have the white trash, the artists like myself looking for great and random finds, lots of dogs, today......a monkey, and the few upscale Belle Meade folks looking for great rod iron pieces. It's a photographers dream!

These are the times I wish I had a house. Man the crazy things I'm going to do to it and buy for it when I have one. **Sigh**

I found a great rod iron dress piece from Mexico that I couldn't pass up.












xoxo.

sunday sunday....

I'm at my best when.....

I'm creating.
I'm giving.
I'm exploring.
I'm around people that make me laugh.
I'm taking photos.
I'm eating at Whole Foods.
I'm exercising.
I'm traveling.


The opposite when.....

I'm alone at night.
I'm behind my desk missing out on the sunshine.
I'm around negative people.
I'm stressed that my life isn't what I envision it to be.
I'm missing California.


~ Me and my computer at Fido and the man next to me has the best looking breakfast sandwich I've ever seen. I want to take a picture of it, but I think he will think I'm the biggest weirdo if I ask. Usually I'm not afraid to just snap a shot if I feel the need but this time I'll just look at it from the corner of my eye as he devours it. I think one of the guys from one of the seasons of the real world is sitting at the end of the bar. I can't remember his name and everytime I look at him to try to figure it out he looks at me at the same time. Awkward. Anyway....

I talked to my dad yesterday. That was the first time I've spoken to one of my parents in a month and a half or more. He said my mom thought I had died. Nah, I said.....I've just been in hiding. He doesn't talk much anyway, so the conversation didn't last long. I got a nice little letter from the IRS yesterday. Apparently there was a mistake on my 2006 tax returns. Good times. Should be a fun start to my work week tomorrow figuring out who, if anyone, made a mistake. Stress.



xoxo.

A study of texture and great walls.

I never take normal pictures of people or things....or myself.

G took this of me today and it's one of the most normal photos I have of myself. So here it is......

Me.............Normal.

We decided to do a photo shoot today of textures, color, and great walls. The sun is bright and has taken over for the second day in a row. We took advantage. If you want to see the other shots from the day, the "un-normal" ones......check out my myspace page.

There is a wall that I am obsessed with finding downtown. G found it on her lunch break one day and I instantly fell in love with it. It's brick and concrete mix with hearts that someone painted sporadically in a little area. And it's nowhere to be found. We tried to re-trace G's steps from lunch that day. No luck. SO, my new goal..........find this wall.

Back to editing photos.

xoxo.

The view from where I sit.

It snowed last night.

The first "real" snow in 5 years in Nashville. I didn't believe it would. The weather men down here always say it's going to happen and it never does. I have a photo shoot tomorrow. Luckily it won't be affected by any of this white stuff. I'm excited.

Today is beautiful. Clear blue skies and cold, yet the temp doesn't seem to matter much because the sun is so strong.

This morning I almost thought I lost my blog. My best friend laughed at me this week for even having one. My response......"I'm an artist, whatever..........."Hahaha, hey, I'll be the first one to make fun of myself for things. ;) Anyway, I logged on to my computer at work and it told me that I couldn't log on anymore without a google account. Nothing worked. You wouldn't think one could become so attached to some stupid page that I update for my friends and sisters, but I am. I decided to go down to Fido and get on my laptop to investigate the problem. Got right on. Maybe I was just meant to be at a coffee shop, and not work. Ahhhh, yeh, that's what it means. Ha.

So now I sit, and type, waiting for B to get home so I can drop off her birthday present.

There is a man sitting next to me that I can honestly say is one of the most annoying people I've ever sat next to in my life. I feel sad for the girl that is with him. But for some reason it's not seeming to bother her. I think he's trying to impress her. Overly trying to impress her. To each his own, right?? My spot today is primo for a voyeur like myself. Window/counter. So I'm not going to move.

I love this grafiti. It's on the wall outside of where I'm sitting. I don't know.......there's something about it.



So simple.

What a small town. Or shall I say music business. I've already seen 3 people I know.

I'm out.....

Wednesday:

1pm

J and I went to lunch. On the way back I was telling him how bad I needed a day off and that I was thinking of playing hookie on Thursday. The problem though I said was that it's no fun if you have no one to play hookie with. So I nixed the idea.

Fast forward to Thursday:

5am

I'm in a deep sleep. I remember dreaming that I was sitting by this beautiful babbling brook. I remember thinking "Oh my gosh, this sounds so wonderful and life-like." Then I started to come out of my sleep....."Is it raining outside? It is coming down LOUD." Something wasn't right. I woke up and half conscious (under the effects still of advil pm) got out of bed. The floor was completely soaked. It was surreal. I opened my closet door to about an inch of water and a hot water heater that burst in the middle of the night. I panicked. I'm not good when it comes to maintenence kind of things. And especially something that could potentially destroy my prized possesions. My clothes. I called B freaking out. I pulled everything I could from the closet and threw it all on my bed. Finally my land lady came down around 6 followed by the maintenence men at 7, carpet guys at 9 and so on.

Everything is fine now. I have a new heater. My carpet is back to normal. Nothing that I cared about got ruined. And uhhhhhhh, I got my day off.

The moral of the story.

Be careful what you wish for.

Done.

The photo really does it no justice though. You have to see it in person for all the details, and if I used a flash it made all the colors different.

My friend Golriz wrote this on her blog:

"i miss lots of people all the time. that is one of the downfalls of not sitting still in one place. you make amazing friends, they enter your world, they become 'regulars' and then overnight they are no longer in your sphere of existence. well they are still part of your life...but not in person. and i shouldn't really complain afterall i am lucky enough to be alive in an age of cell phones, air travel and our friend the internet...but still, i miss you. and you. and you."

Words straight from my mouth.

And I miss so many things right now that I just can't seem to get out of this funk I've fallen into. I've been trying. Hard. I will keep trying. :)

Yesterday was picture perfect. Couldn't have asked for better weather and so Justin, Jon and I took advantage and went for a long hike. It seemed like all of Nashville had the same idea. Too bad it's supposed to snow again Wednesday. Such a tease.

I decided that in three years I'd like to be back in California. Not sure where or how, but three years. That is my goal. I'm not feelin Nashville anymore. Southern thing........not my thing.

But who knows. I've learned and learned and learned that you can't predict life. Your walking down your path, happy, and all of a sudden the rug us pulled out from under you. And you have to pick yourself up and keep on going. There's nothing else you can do.

Faith.


xoxo.