Wednesday, November 10, 2010

what a difference a couple weeks makes.

i feel on top of the world.

everything that happened in the last year means nothing to me. it's actually laughable.

good things are bombarding me and i'm receiving it all with open arms....

Monday, July 5, 2010

two peas....

my bff in la. love love love love him. don't know what i would do without him around.


Saturday, July 3, 2010

"We must embrace pain and burn it as fuel for our journey."

Saturday, June 26, 2010

ask and you shall receive.

the last 10 months have been rough.

i had the rug pulled out from under me. i moved to the other side of the country in about a week. i had the guy i was in love with who disappeared on me without reason re-appear and move me here. then shortly after met someone new. fell. and got screwed up again. it was like continuously jumping from one intense thing to another. that would shake anyone up that has a heart......and mine happens to be a little bit bigger than most.

california is beautiful. los angeles can be ugly.

there's beauty within it, but you have to really search and keep your head above the water because if you don't you'll drown.

i started going under around christmas. floating numb until about 4 weeks ago. that's when i hit a rock at the bottom and it woke me up.

i'm a happy person. and although i've fought with depression my entire life, when all is said and done i think i'm a light.

today a stranger started talking to me. i smiled and talked with him for a minute. as i was leaving trader joe's he stopped me and said, "ohhh, it's you again. i want to thank you for being a friendly person." that's been stuck in my head for the last few hours. that's just me. i love.

the point here......for my friends that read my blog and have been concerned is:



my angels pulled me out of the water.

and i know there are some great things to come...............soon!

Sunday, April 11, 2010

Sunday, March 21, 2010

"God often takes a course for accomplishing His purposes directly contrary to what our narrow views would prescribe. He brings a death upon our feelings, wishes, and prospects when He is about to give us the desire of our hearts." ~ John Newton

Thursday, February 18, 2010

my soul can best be described by a photo....

a heart lying on and beneath every. thing.

~courtesy of golriz lucina (soon to be gundry).

i'm looking into a career change.

i think i got "stuck" in this world of music i've been in for 7 1/2 years. my intention was always to do photography and film. my biggest love. add music to any visual art and it can make it even more amazing, but first and foremost i want to create. so, how did i get off my path for so long? and how do i get back on the right path??

why couldn't have i just wanted to be a teacher or something?? :)

Sunday, February 14, 2010

in one night we went from the elks lodge in santa ana with a bunch of mexican gangstas (this is for real) back up to hollywood for a late late show. such a good night.

Saturday, January 23, 2010

such a good day.

Monday, January 4, 2010

man i love her.

she's crazy like her aunt.

i can't wait to see the person she grows to be. it's gonna be somethin'.


Saturday, January 2, 2010

Boundaries emerge from deep within. They are connected to letting go of guilt & shame, and to changing our beliefs about what we deserve. Boundaries are also connected to a higher timing than our own. We'll set a limit when we're ready, not a moment before. So will others.