Saturday, June 26, 2010

ask and you shall receive.

the last 10 months have been rough.

i had the rug pulled out from under me. i moved to the other side of the country in about a week. i had the guy i was in love with who disappeared on me without reason re-appear and move me here. then shortly after met someone new. fell. and got screwed up again. it was like continuously jumping from one intense thing to another. that would shake anyone up that has a heart......and mine happens to be a little bit bigger than most.

california is beautiful. los angeles can be ugly.

there's beauty within it, but you have to really search and keep your head above the water because if you don't you'll drown.

i started going under around christmas. floating numb until about 4 weeks ago. that's when i hit a rock at the bottom and it woke me up.

i'm a happy person. and although i've fought with depression my entire life, when all is said and done i think i'm a light.

today a stranger started talking to me. i smiled and talked with him for a minute. as i was leaving trader joe's he stopped me and said, "ohhh, it's you again. i want to thank you for being a friendly person." that's been stuck in my head for the last few hours. that's just me. i love.

the point here......for my friends that read my blog and have been concerned is:



my angels pulled me out of the water.

and i know there are some great things to come...............soon!