Saturday, November 29, 2008

Dear Every female in the world,

Please never put these on your body. They are in no way, shape or form "cute," "trendy," "cool" or anything but to make fun of. Only put these on if it is part of a Halloween costume next year. But THAT'S IT. People won't be staring at you because they want to know where you got your tights. They will only be wondering why on earth you ever went out in public with those on.

You'll thank me for the blunt honesty one day.


Your friendly fashionista

I'm in a weird head space right now. Everything seems to be so busy busy busy and I have way too many thoughts living in my head that I'm trying to solve. I guess you really can't "solve" thoughts, but you get what I was saying there.

Life is funny and frustrating. Equally.

Mexico needs to get here soon!!!

Sunday, November 23, 2008

Have you ever been so busy and around so many people at an event, job or party that you can't sleep well because you think you are still there talking to them??

I'm wide awake at 7 am. I could hardly keep my eyes open last night when I got home from the first day of my second job.

What am I thinking?? That is what was running through my mind as my insides shook from the temp outside at 8:15 pm when I got off work. Everything ached. My neck. My ankles. My back. I'm not used to standing around without sitting for 10 hours. My life for the next year suddenly flashed in front of me last night as I came home to a messy apartment. Saturday is my cleaning day, but I have NO time anymore. Up at 7 am and home at 8:30 pm too tired to think about anything but sleep.

And today I do it all over again.

I'm not complaining. I feel completely blessed that I got this second job. A lot of people don't even have one job in this country right now and I have two. Both which pay really well. The sacrifice will be free time. The gain will be a huge savings account that I will need next year.

I'm scared to move back to California. I'm so scared that it will be like before. I'm in an in-between place right now and I've had to let everything go and just ride the wave. See where it takes me.

I just wish that whatever the plan is for me in this life would hurry up and take form. I'm tired of the in-between....

Sunday, November 16, 2008

"How do you fight gravity in a planet that insists that love is like falling and falling is like this."

I want to do a photo shoot in the Juicy Couture dressing room. It's amazing. Large. With incredible lighting. Lots of details.

I'm obsessed.

This week starts my 75 hour work weeks. I'm a little nervous to be working this much without any days off. Energy drinks and I may become great friends.....


Thursday, November 13, 2008

Dear cowards, gamblers, liars, addicts, basically losers -

I'm a little too old to put up with you coming into my life anymore. I need someone honest, stable and mature.

Thanks for nothing (well except showing me what I don't want in my life) and good luck with all those issues that will bring someone else down.



Saturday, November 8, 2008

I'm feeling a little anxiety.

I've been looking for places in Santa Monica. So small and so much money.

But I told myself that when I moved back I'd be at the beach and this beach is the closest to my office. :(

So I'm throwing this out into the universe -

I need to find someone to move out there with me or to move in with in the next year....

Any takers???

Tuesday, November 4, 2008

I'm kinda big time....

Or not really.

But I'm representing channel 4 news tonight at 2 of the precincts.

Looking forward to all of this to be over tomorrow.