hey sydney, tell us a little about yourself.......

i'm going to need a vacation after this week. :)

and they're here.

i'm not used to having kids around 24/7. it's exhausting.

sydney is loco.



xo.

MADE IT!

today started the first day of 16 days off! i can't even explain how good it feels to have nothing to do for a week till my sista and her fam come. i began the process of becoming a californian today. can't believe i have to take the damn driver's test again. it's okay though. i feel good. 2009 was a year of working hard towards something and a big change and 2010 is when everything is going to come together. my new desk is so great. diamonds, camcorders, cash and big time vegas hookups.

damn it feels good to be'ah gangsta...... ;)

heading back to sin city in a few weeks hopefully.

for now. exhausted at 5:30 and need to get movtivated for wine and catch up with a friend before she heads toward the snow.

not me son. sunshiiiiiiiiiiine.


xo.

been busy

haven't had much time to write. work makes me tired. just wait till i get a second job again after xmas break. i'll be rollin in the dough, but tired all the time. but rollin in the dough.

a fun weekend. such a good escape. hopefully i'll be going back again next weekend.

i got a diamond necklace and ring this week. helps cure the stress a little. :)

xo.

there is a sting that comes along with seeing someone you used to be with, with someone else.

there is less of a sting that comes along when it's the person that was before you.

i've been seeing other people for months now and still can't stop thinking about that one.

i think they'll get married. he once said they were the same person. and i don't think he thinks he deserves better. one day i'll stop talking about him. and i'm looking forward to that day. hahaha. he certainly did a number.

sometimes i wish my dad would have treated my mom the way he treated me. but instead i watched the opposite which in return has royally effed me up because i love the tortured souls. or should i say just plain screwed up ones.

is there a hypnotist in the house???

when do you stop missing someone???

escape to witch mountain....

i can't wait till there is actually a little more then a patch of snow up there!

6 weeks till i see my sister and the kids!!!!

can't wait!

such a good day. such a good weekend.

this is why i moved back.

so tired.

so night.

xo.

i'm in love with downtown. it may be my next place of residence. i feel like i've spent the last two weekends there. we'll see. took nik out yesterday and broke him in a bit. i'm like a kid in a candy store when i see places with so much texture, color and character. fall is amazing. now the only thing missing is my little g to shoot with. i'm rollin solo now....

i present to you......

my new love. i'll have to break him in this weekend.

more to come....

can not wait

"It may not be the right time.

I may not be the right one.

But there is something about us."

flea markets rock. seriously. it blows my mind the amount of junk and randomness people keep and collect. i got a couple great pieces, but for the most part it was the biggest and most overwhelming flea market i've ever seen. i would like to note that i was so in love with all the day of the dead "things." i say "things" because the it was incorporated into everything. luggage to name one. my last post stated it best. i am having so much fun. meeting so many new people. and i feel good. tomorrow i meet with my personal trainer at 6am for the first time. i told her to kick my ass. i'm scared. :) not looking forward to the body pain for the next two weeks. ugg.




xo.

i.am.happy.

say what you feel.

if you have a great friend........tell them that you appreciate them.

if your mom sends you a sweet card telling you she's proud of you..........tell her how much it meant.

tell your dad that you miss him. even if he doesn't say it back to you.

if you love someone.......tell them you do.

we don't have enough time here to regret saying what we are feeling.

love you.

today i went with amy to one of the most painful stores on earth. david's bridal. and while she was getting her bridesmaid dress altered i decided to explore the creepiness outside of the dressing rooms. now.....i love going to weddings. and if you know me you know i LOVE to love. but, i think i'm just simple and not an "in the spotlight" type of girl. give me a beach, my future hubs, family, some friends and a party after and i'll be good to go.

anyway, two wtf's below for your viewing enjoyment.





fish net????




layered marshmallow????

wooof.

dear g,

you are one of my few friends that will get this. i love this photo. and you know why you will get this? shot thru the blublockers. yep. the multi-facetness (is that a word?) that is the blublockers. they made boring blah arkansas look amazing. they made this boring blah gas station in new mexico that we tagged ahh-mazing. can't wait to see you in the next few days. xo.

your friend,
a.

i feel alive when.....

*i spend an hour in the art supply store.

*i'm sitting at the beach.

*i love someone and they love me back.

*random things happen that put a smile on my face.

*i'm inspiring people. especially kids.

*i hang out with other creative people.

*i hear eddie vedder sing.

my sweet sydney is a beach girl like her aunt.

not many times in life does someone come around that you feel such an indescribable comfort and love around.

sad.

i miss my old phone.
i love my blackberry, but it's lacking a camera. how am i supposed to take random pics and send them to people? grrr.

la inspires me. maybe i should re-phrase that......
california inspires me. and parts of la too. there is so much for me to take crazy photos of. nashville had little bits of greatness, but wow, there are lots of bits of greatness to be captured.

i'm buying a bad ass slr nikon pronto. merry early christmas to me.

xo.

love. this.

i'm back.

i'm settled.

i'm pretty happy.

the last 3 weeks have been full of stress, anxiety, confusion, questions and just go go go. glad that is over. it all fell into place though from start to finish and i'm thankful for the things that came into my life. the first day was overwhelming. the building is ridiculously intimidating and confusing. add that to meeting a bizzillion new faces. trying to remember names, floors (and which department is on which floor), waking up with a bad head cold wednesday and jeez, the challenge began. by friday though i was good.

buying a large canvas today and starting a painting for my bedroom. brown and turquiose maybe. we'll see. definitely a chill vibe for the room of relaxing.

hung out with jill yesterday, who moved to nyc after college and is now back in w. hollywood. love her. we had a blast like old times. both photographers. was taken out for a nice late dinner and then went home and crashed. today i'm hoping for some sunshine to either get some pool time in, or go run at the beach. love ca.

xo.

much needed.

i took a day off to go to atlanta to see bad religion.

i'm exhauted, but they rocked and i even left with greg hetson's guitar pick that land at my feet on stage. so many young kids. i felt old. this kid in the crowd with the goggles was trippin me out. drove back last night in a downpour. back at it today.

so good.

i have a pouty bottom lip....

......and in other news, i found the apartment i want. it's in westwood and it's amazing. hardwood floors. big windows. black and white checkered kitchen floor. send good vibes. i need this apartment to be mine!

mmmm. loves.

Things that are going on right now.....

1. I have NO life. All I have been doing is working and clearing out my apartment. I can't wait to not work two jobs for awhile when I get back.

2. I have become a workaholic. Seriously. I feel like I have to be doing something from 5:45 am when I go the the gym now, until I go to bed at night. I'm thinking this is probably not a healthy mental state to be in. ;)

3. My closest Nashville friends have moved to LA (this I love) or are out on the road all summer. This makes #1 way way easier!

4. I think I have almost talked my dad into sending me his Nikon D70 for my birthday in 11 days. My mom is the only thing standing in the way.

5. I am really really happy with what I have accomplished in the last 9 months. I kinda rock!

6. I not excited at all about this birthday. All I want is daisies........and I don't think I'll get any.

7. My bosses 4 month old little girl inspires me and makes me want kids in the next few years.

8. My Rhythm of Hope program at Vanderbilt Children's hospital got recognition with NBC and Century Fox out in LA and I was mentioned. :)

9. I miss my family and don't know when I'll see them again. It's been a year.

10. I'm smiling.

.........things always get interesting right before i move. and this time is no exception.

hmmmm.

i started clearing out my closet tonight. going through boxes i haven't touched in probably 7 years. there were bags full of things i threw away. then i organized photos/albums. i'm not a pack rat like some people. i figure if you don't ever look at things or use them there is no point in keeping them. well most things that is. there are still some sentimentals that i can't let go of......

nashville is officially a swamp. a thick muggy oven. hate it. i'm thankful this is my last summer here.

amy made it to la today. so strange how that just fell onto my path. it will be so nice to have one of my nashville friends out there with me.

i believe in signs. i believe in timing. and i believe that when something is meant to happen you just know. and then everything just starts to fall into place. i can feel it all working around me right now.

my mind has a million things going through it right now.

and it's so so good.

yesterday was a really good day.

we had our third event at the vanderbilt children's hospital. it went so well. it completely melts your heart and puts you in check on what is really important in life when you see these kids that are waiting on heart transplants, or have brain tumors or cancer. we have it pretty good!

i noticed that the pillar next to my parking space at work had a little extra pizazz.

and....

eddie vedder acoustic at the ryman was last night. holy shit. if i don't see another show the rest of this year i'm totally cool. amazing. he's one tortured brilliant soul.

the people i see most in life.

roo roooooo

so i camped out. and thought i'd go all out.

it rocked.

highlights:

- my best friend and her sister coming down from virginia bch/baltimore.
- silent disco
- NIN's last us show
- rodrigo y gabriella
- silent disco
- having tons of adrenaline all weekend to be up till 4am only to crash HARD sunday night.
- not a care in the world in the bonnaroo bubble.
- dancing effed up alien man/thing at the silent disco at 2am (this was the best thing EVER)
- AND.........public enemy

last night was ridiculous.

i got some great video footage. i was inspired for 115 minutes and then slept hard. off to work in 30. ohhhhhh, my easy and fun weekend job. i really do like you, although you make me exhausted beyond belief.

my move is getting closer and closer. just trying to breathe and not stress.

so much going on right now. can't wait to be back and sit in the sunshine.

making use of a blank wall........

this is the view from my office window right now.

i think it's pretty much been raining for 3 weeks now. or maybe 2. same thing.
at least we got a rainbow out of today's storm. i'm trying to go downtown to see soulja boy and offspring in a little, but i don't care about either one of them enough to get drenched by the on again/off again downpours.

funny things have been happening lately that remind me that people from your past can pop back in your life at any time. never think you won't talk or see someone again. i love it. love it.

xo.

brilliant.

love it when people think outside of the box!

still in need of some stimulation.....

PRONTO!!!!! :)

not all wanderers are lost??

well............maybe i am.

i haven't really loved someone's work in a long time, but I absolutely love this artist!!

http://www.danielleduer.com

i haven't been writing. i am busier than busy and my brain is usually mush. time for some stimulation REAL SOON. whatever is supposed to happen will happen. I'm sorta along for the ride.

i'm bored with things and looking at going to italy and santorini for 2 weeks by myself.

clear my head.

things i love right now:

pineapple
sunshine
my stomach finally feeling better today
the thousands of mating birds outside of our building (weird)
breaking up the monotony but staying on track
the kids growing

i miss mi familia. gotta find a way to sneak away from town and get up to pittsburgh.

actually, gotta find a way to just get out of town more. period.

i've decided to jump out of a plane on my birthday. the planning has begun.

amy and i think we solved all the worlds' problems in a little under an hour and a half on the phone tonight.

if only everyone "got it" like we do. ;)

i'm a lost solider right now. fighting for something that i'm not even sure is the right choice. fighting with conviction.

against what no one else in my family thinks is the right thing for me. shocker. and they are usually right. that's the funny part. but i follow my heart. even though it's usually wrong. it hasn't been the most helpful gps in life, but it guides me to many odd and random adventures.

i have a hard shell again. and i'm not sure i'm going to let anyone in again for a while. why are relationships such a thing of the past and people are so effed up now a days? tough times for a hopeless romantic that loves to love.

i've decided to givie my love out in other ways these days. as if i'm not busy enough working 2 jobs i am now the co-chair for lollipop theater's "rhythm of hope" organization. once a month we will be going into the vanderbilt children's hospital with musicians and teaching the kids about rhythm, pitch, etc and creating songs. i'm really excited about it. they are based in la, but we are bringing it to nashville. i love making people happy, and if it helps them escape for an hour of their day of laying in a hospital bed i'll do whatever to put a smile on their face.

our first event is next thurs.

send good vibes.

xoxo.

an-he-la + jewstun = fun night.

the lighting was amazing this morning.

so i captured it.

every monday i spend most of the morning slacking. it's my little break after working all weekend.

time for another vacation. nyc, here i come. it's not really a vacation, but it's at least an escape.

makes so much sense.

"Absence Is To Love, What The Wind Is To Fire, When It’s a Small Fire The Wind Kills It But When It’s a Real Fire It Intensifies It."

signed up for twitter. don't know why. i'm not really into it, but i signed up.

tomorrow starts my 7 day grind again. i guess i'm ready for it. i'll just continue to look at my savings account grow for that extra push on saturdays and sundays to roll out of bed.

nyc 4 weeks from today.

i'm looking forward to escaping from nashville again.

then la to go check out apartments in mar vista. i like busy. busy is good.

monday i start with a personal trainer. looking forward to breaking the monotony of my gym routine and being pushed even further. i'm addicted to the adrenaline rush.

i miss my family.
and i miss some other things.

but i'm okay. and.

i'm blessed.

i had a little too much to drink in mexico and......

how angela got her groove back.......

good tequila, vodka, a 7 bedroom villa overlooking the ocean, and beto (beh-to). ;)

vivir la buena vida!!

things have been crazy. i'm not sure how people work 7 days a week because they HAVE to. i've been on the verge of mental meltdown. blake and jaime had their baby and so this week i had to pull double duty routing dates, booking shows, and pulling in offers (along with my assistant stuff i do on a daily basis). all for a good cause as i told myself while holding "evie" (eh -vee) on my lunch break wednesday afternoon. what an angel.

i told justin if it weren't for me going to mexico next weekend and getting 9 days off he'd need to admit me to a mental facility. ha. seriously.

i'm always amazed what we are given to handle in life, and the strong push through because they know there will be an end to it. a light.

my light will be drinking tequila by the infiniti pool next sunday. and probably monday, wednesday and thursday as well. (tuesday i'll be in the water swimming with the dolphins). ;)

i'll have a bunch of new photos to post soon. working with some friends on a little project.

time to get ready for work......

xo.

back to bangs.....

and so i added a little......