It's what I used to tell people I wanted to do when I grew up.

I never really knew what occupation I was going to have, but I knew I wanted to make people feel good and put a little light in their lives....

Funny thing is.....I still don't know what I want to do with my life. But the answer is still the same.

xoxo.

the 3's

Nighttime is when I write the best.

Always has been.

I've wanted to write on here for a couple weeks, but when I'm thinking about things at night I have to try to hold on to the thoughts till morning when I'm back at the internet. And they are usually gone. The inspiration has fizzled.

I asked for peace of mind and I received it.

I have a plan.

Nov of 09' I will begin the move back to California. Unless something that I cannot control happens before then that is my plan. It's a big move back for me. I will leave all my friends once again and treck back to the land on the westest side. The next year and a half will be a struggle. It's hard when you want to be somewhere but you know the timing isn't right. I love my instant gratification and get frustrated when things don't happen when I want them to. It's teaching me patience. Doing something the smart way with planning, instead of flying by the seat of my pants and jumping into the unknown (which is what I usually do).

The last two weeks have been tough. Weird.

One of my closest friends has been going through a death and then on the day of the funeral yesterday another close person to her died in the funeral home parking lot. She's a mess. And my heart hurts for what she is going through right now.

3's.

3 deaths in 3 days and 3 people I know in car accidents in the last week.

You can't explain things and we'll never be able to. Stuff happens. It just shows you that things can change in a blink of the eye and you really have to be thankful in the moment. You can try to have as much control over your life as you want. But when it comes down to it, we really have no control.

It's been 4 months since I've talked to my mom.

Think I'll call her.....

xoxo.

Hmmmmm.

My boss was supposed to land on his flight around 2pm. It is now almost quarter till 5 and I am confused. And bored.

Did everyone decide to take the day off for Cinco De Mayo or because it is absolutely beautiful out? The phones have rung about 10 times today. Usually it's 5times this much. So I won't complain. I will stay bored, wonder where my boss is, and be happy that I have a break for once instead of being drowned in paperwork.

Does exercise make everything in your life seem better?

YES.

I quit my membership about five months ago when I thought I was moving back to CA in June. And surprisingly enough I have also been in a dark hole for the last 5 months as well. Well finally on Thursday I decided I couldn't take it anymore and got my membership back. What a turnaround. And a lot of pain. But man do I already feel so much better. I'm being patient. I know I'm not going to be able to move anytime soon. So I'm sitting tight and saving my money. Like I preach about all the time anyway, it's all about the timing, and when it's time it will all fit together and I will be able to move. Oh happy day. Ha. Patience is a precious quality and I am trying to teach myself to be better with it. You have to have it.

Right now I want:
* A tan
* A plane ticket somewhere
* The tattoo I'm getting on my foot
* A bit more clarity
* The next hour and a half to fly by
* To be at peace with things


Loving the sunshine.

xoxo.

Things you don't know about me.....

- I get really depressed when it's cloudy or rains.
- I am allergic to dogs yet want one in the worst way.
- I'm obsessed with green tea (wait, you probably did know that).
- I think it's rude when people are late.
- I'm really good at random pop culture.
- I'd rather buy a dress than groceries for a week.
- I'm growing my hair 4 inches longer.
- I love the Travel channel.
- I keep "things to do" lists.
- I think photos are some of the most fascinating things in the world.
- Sunshine makes me so happy, but I hate the heat.
- I was a vegetarian for 4 years in college.
- Dusk is my favorite time of the day.

Great words of advice....

"Don't love someone that doesn't love you back."

example of....

the braid wrap

blondes and redheads have more fun.....

I felt like I was back in LA yesterday. Chinatown. I used to go there all the time since I only lived a couple miles away and because I was so broke and things were so cheap. After a long day of shopping and pampering I remembered right before B dropped me off that I wanted to get some extentions. I want to rock the braid wrap (you'll see at some point) a little bit this spring and summer. So we turn the car around and headed to the wig shop. Wig shops are odd and fun all wrapped into the same experience. G - you would LOVE it. I'm just sayin.

Anyway, we got what we needed and learned that neither of us should ever leave our hair colors behind and go to the darker side. Ick. I'm a blonde through and through.

Last night I realized that I fall asleep listening to the beat of my heart. Right hand over my heart and left hand on top. It's soothing, and a bit therapeutic. Just thought it was interesting. I've always done it. But last night, for some reason there was just more to it.

Today is my sister's birthday. I got her Michael Buble tickets and she's a happy camper. 33. Wow.

Haaapy Birthday Steph.

xoxo.