Not all wanderers are lost.....

2010-11-10T11:15:00.001-08:00

what a difference a couple weeks makes.

i feel on top of the world.

everything that happened in the last year means nothing to me. it's actually laughable.

good things are bombarding me and i'm receiving it all with open arms....

reason #121 why i want to go to santorini....

2010-08-02T12:06:00.000-07:00

it glows.

two peas....

2010-07-05T18:56:00.000-07:00

my bff in la. love love love love him. don't know what i would do without him around.

xo.

2010-07-03T22:12:00.000-07:00

"We must embrace pain and burn it as fuel for our journey."

ask and you shall receive.

2010-06-26T20:08:00.000-07:00

the last 10 months have been rough.

i had the rug pulled out from under me. i moved to the other side of the country in about a week. i had the guy i was in love with who disappeared on me without reason re-appear and move me here. then shortly after met someone new. fell. and got screwed up again. it was like continuously jumping from one intense thing to another. that would shake anyone up that has a heart......and mine happens to be a little bit bigger than most.

california is beautiful. los angeles can be ugly.

there's beauty within it, but you have to really search and keep your head above the water because if you don't you'll drown.

i started going under around christmas. floating numb until about 4 weeks ago. that's when i hit a rock at the bottom and it woke me up.

i'm a happy person. and although i've fought with depression my entire life, when all is said and done i think i'm a light.

today a stranger started talking to me. i smiled and talked with him for a minute. as i was leaving trader joe's he stopped me and said, "ohhh, it's you again. i want to thank you for being a friendly person." that's been stuck in my head for the last few hours. that's just me. i love.

the point here......for my friends that read my blog and have been concerned is:

I'M GOOD.

finally.

my angels pulled me out of the water.

and i know there are some great things to come...............soon!

whatever sydney does sarah wants to do too.....

2010-04-11T21:31:00.000-07:00

so.......

i present to you my other niece trying to pop n lock.

reason #1 why i need to go to switzerland....

2010-04-11T21:28:00.000-07:00

2010-03-21T21:44:00.000-07:00

"God often takes a course for accomplishing His purposes directly contrary to what our narrow views would prescribe. He brings a death upon our feelings, wishes, and prospects when He is about to give us the desire of our hearts." ~ John Newton

my soul can best be described by a photo....

2010-02-18T19:24:00.000-08:00

a heart lying on and beneath every. thing.

~courtesy of golriz lucina (soon to be gundry).

2010-02-18T19:10:00.000-08:00

i'm looking into a career change.

i think i got "stuck" in this world of music i've been in for 7 1/2 years. my intention was always to do photography and film. my biggest love. add music to any visual art and it can make it even more amazing, but first and foremost i want to create. so, how did i get off my path for so long? and how do i get back on the right path??

why couldn't have i just wanted to be a teacher or something?? :)

2010-02-14T12:23:00.000-08:00

in one night we went from the elks lodge in santa ana with a bunch of mexican gangstas (this is for real) back up to hollywood for a late late show. such a good night.

2010-01-23T22:19:00.000-08:00

such a good day.

man i love her.

2010-01-04T22:25:00.000-08:00

she's crazy like her aunt.

i can't wait to see the person she grows to be. it's gonna be somethin'.

xxxx.

2010-01-02T06:53:00.000-08:00

Boundaries emerge from deep within. They are connected to letting go of guilt & shame, and to changing our beliefs about what we deserve. Boundaries are also connected to a higher timing than our own. We'll set a limit when we're ready, not a moment before. So will others.

hey sydney, tell us a little about yourself.......

2009-12-28T20:16:00.000-08:00

i'm going to need a vacation after this week. :)

2009-12-28T20:11:00.000-08:00

and they're here.

i'm not used to having kids around 24/7. it's exhausting.

sydney is loco.

xo.

2009-12-19T17:22:00.001-08:00

MADE IT!

today started the first day of 16 days off! i can't even explain how good it feels to have nothing to do for a week till my sista and her fam come. i began the process of becoming a californian today. can't believe i have to take the damn driver's test again. it's okay though. i feel good. 2009 was a year of working hard towards something and a big change and 2010 is when everything is going to come together. my new desk is so great. diamonds, camcorders, cash and big time vegas hookups.

damn it feels good to be'ah gangsta...... ;)

heading back to sin city in a few weeks hopefully.

for now. exhausted at 5:30 and need to get movtivated for wine and catch up with a friend before she heads toward the snow.

not me son. sunshiiiiiiiiiiine.

xo.

been busy

2009-12-11T20:41:00.000-08:00

haven't had much time to write. work makes me tired. just wait till i get a second job again after xmas break. i'll be rollin in the dough, but tired all the time. but rollin in the dough.

a fun weekend. such a good escape. hopefully i'll be going back again next weekend.

i got a diamond necklace and ring this week. helps cure the stress a little. :)

xo.

2009-12-02T16:59:00.000-08:00

there is a sting that comes along with seeing someone you used to be with, with someone else.

there is less of a sting that comes along when it's the person that was before you.

i've been seeing other people for months now and still can't stop thinking about that one.

i think they'll get married. he once said they were the same person. and i don't think he thinks he deserves better. one day i'll stop talking about him. and i'm looking forward to that day. hahaha. he certainly did a number.

sometimes i wish my dad would have treated my mom the way he treated me. but instead i watched the opposite which in return has royally effed me up because i love the tortured souls. or should i say just plain screwed up ones.

is there a hypnotist in the house???

2009-11-17T20:34:00.000-08:00

when do you stop missing someone???

escape to witch mountain....

2009-11-16T18:20:00.000-08:00

i can't wait till there is actually a little more then a patch of snow up there!

6 weeks till i see my sister and the kids!!!!

can't wait!

2009-10-25T21:22:00.000-07:00

such a good day. such a good weekend.

this is why i moved back.

so tired.

so night.

xo.

2009-10-12T11:06:00.000-07:00

i'm in love with downtown. it may be my next place of residence. i feel like i've spent the last two weekends there. we'll see. took nik out yesterday and broke him in a bit. i'm like a kid in a candy store when i see places with so much texture, color and character. fall is amazing. now the only thing missing is my little g to shoot with. i'm rollin solo now....

i present to you......

2009-10-06T11:08:00.000-07:00

my new love. i'll have to break him in this weekend.

more to come....

can not wait

2009-10-02T16:45:00.000-07:00

2009-09-14T21:11:00.001-07:00

"It may not be the right time.

I may not be the right one.

But there is something about us."

2009-09-13T16:04:00.000-07:00

flea markets rock. seriously. it blows my mind the amount of junk and randomness people keep and collect. i got a couple great pieces, but for the most part it was the biggest and most overwhelming flea market i've ever seen. i would like to note that i was so in love with all the day of the dead "things." i say "things" because the it was incorporated into everything. luggage to name one. my last post stated it best. i am having so much fun. meeting so many new people. and i feel good. tomorrow i meet with my personal trainer at 6am for the first time. i told her to kick my ass. i'm scared. :) not looking forward to the body pain for the next two weeks. ugg.

xo.

2009-09-11T18:52:00.001-07:00

i.am.happy.

2009-09-06T21:43:00.000-07:00

say what you feel.

if you have a great friend........tell them that you appreciate them.

if your mom sends you a sweet card telling you she's proud of you..........tell her how much it meant.

tell your dad that you miss him. even if he doesn't say it back to you.

if you love someone.......tell them you do.

we don't have enough time here to regret saying what we are feeling.

love you.

2009-09-05T20:53:00.000-07:00

today i went with amy to one of the most painful stores on earth. david's bridal. and while she was getting her bridesmaid dress altered i decided to explore the creepiness outside of the dressing rooms. now.....i love going to weddings. and if you know me you know i LOVE to love. but, i think i'm just simple and not an "in the spotlight" type of girl. give me a beach, my future hubs, family, some friends and a party after and i'll be good to go.

anyway, two wtf's below for your viewing enjoyment.

fish net????

layered marshmallow????

wooof.

dear g,

2009-09-02T18:16:00.001-07:00

you are one of my few friends that will get this. i love this photo. and you know why you will get this? shot thru the blublockers. yep. the multi-facetness (is that a word?) that is the blublockers. they made boring blah arkansas look amazing. they made this boring blah gas station in new mexico that we tagged ahh-mazing. can't wait to see you in the next few days. xo.

your friend,
a.

i feel alive when.....

2009-09-01T20:10:00.000-07:00

*i spend an hour in the art supply store.

*i'm sitting at the beach.

*i love someone and they love me back.

*random things happen that put a smile on my face.

*i'm inspiring people. especially kids.

*i hang out with other creative people.

*i hear eddie vedder sing.

2009-08-29T00:10:00.000-07:00

my sweet sydney is a beach girl like her aunt.

2009-08-28T23:55:00.000-07:00

not many times in life does someone come around that you feel such an indescribable comfort and love around.

sad.

2009-08-25T18:06:00.001-07:00

i miss my old phone.
i love my blackberry, but it's lacking a camera. how am i supposed to take random pics and send them to people? grrr.

la inspires me. maybe i should re-phrase that......
california inspires me. and parts of la too. there is so much for me to take crazy photos of. nashville had little bits of greatness, but wow, there are lots of bits of greatness to be captured.

i'm buying a bad ass slr nikon pronto. merry early christmas to me.

xo.

love. this.

2009-08-25T18:04:00.001-07:00

2009-08-16T10:05:00.000-07:00

i'm back.

i'm settled.

i'm pretty happy.

the last 3 weeks have been full of stress, anxiety, confusion, questions and just go go go. glad that is over. it all fell into place though from start to finish and i'm thankful for the things that came into my life. the first day was overwhelming. the building is ridiculously intimidating and confusing. add that to meeting a bizzillion new faces. trying to remember names, floors (and which department is on which floor), waking up with a bad head cold wednesday and jeez, the challenge began. by friday though i was good.

buying a large canvas today and starting a painting for my bedroom. brown and turquiose maybe. we'll see. definitely a chill vibe for the room of relaxing.

hung out with jill yesterday, who moved to nyc after college and is now back in w. hollywood. love her. we had a blast like old times. both photographers. was taken out for a nice late dinner and then went home and crashed. today i'm hoping for some sunshine to either get some pool time in, or go run at the beach. love ca.

xo.

much needed.

2009-07-29T06:58:00.000-07:00

i took a day off to go to atlanta to see bad religion.

i'm exhauted, but they rocked and i even left with greg hetson's guitar pick that land at my feet on stage. so many young kids. i felt old. this kid in the crowd with the goggles was trippin me out. drove back last night in a downpour. back at it today.

so good.

i have a pouty bottom lip....

2009-07-24T20:34:00.001-07:00

......and in other news, i found the apartment i want. it's in westwood and it's amazing. hardwood floors. big windows. black and white checkered kitchen floor. send good vibes. i need this apartment to be mine!

mmmm. loves.

2009-07-22T16:02:00.001-07:00

Things that are going on right now.....

2009-07-03T19:53:00.001-07:00

1. I have NO life. All I have been doing is working and clearing out my apartment. I can't wait to not work two jobs for awhile when I get back.

2. I have become a workaholic. Seriously. I feel like I have to be doing something from 5:45 am when I go the the gym now, until I go to bed at night. I'm thinking this is probably not a healthy mental state to be in. ;)

3. My closest Nashville friends have moved to LA (this I love) or are out on the road all summer. This makes #1 way way easier!

4. I think I have almost talked my dad into sending me his Nikon D70 for my birthday in 11 days. My mom is the only thing standing in the way.

5. I am really really happy with what I have accomplished in the last 9 months. I kinda rock!

6. I not excited at all about this birthday. All I want is daisies........and I don't think I'll get any.

7. My bosses 4 month old little girl inspires me and makes me want kids in the next few years.

8. My Rhythm of Hope program at Vanderbilt Children's hospital got recognition with NBC and Century Fox out in LA and I was mentioned. :)

9. I miss my family and don't know when I'll see them again. It's been a year.

10. I'm smiling.

2009-07-01T19:17:00.001-07:00

.........things always get interesting right before i move. and this time is no exception.

hmmmm.

2009-06-20T20:21:00.000-07:00

i started clearing out my closet tonight. going through boxes i haven't touched in probably 7 years. there were bags full of things i threw away. then i organized photos/albums. i'm not a pack rat like some people. i figure if you don't ever look at things or use them there is no point in keeping them. well most things that is. there are still some sentimentals that i can't let go of......

nashville is officially a swamp. a thick muggy oven. hate it. i'm thankful this is my last summer here.

amy made it to la today. so strange how that just fell onto my path. it will be so nice to have one of my nashville friends out there with me.

i believe in signs. i believe in timing. and i believe that when something is meant to happen you just know. and then everything just starts to fall into place. i can feel it all working around me right now.

my mind has a million things going through it right now.

and it's so so good.

2009-06-19T08:08:00.000-07:00

yesterday was a really good day.

we had our third event at the vanderbilt children's hospital. it went so well. it completely melts your heart and puts you in check on what is really important in life when you see these kids that are waiting on heart transplants, or have brain tumors or cancer. we have it pretty good!

i noticed that the pillar next to my parking space at work had a little extra pizazz.

and....

eddie vedder acoustic at the ryman was last night. holy shit. if i don't see another show the rest of this year i'm totally cool. amazing. he's one tortured brilliant soul.

the people i see most in life.

2009-06-18T16:15:00.000-07:00

roo roooooo

2009-06-16T09:08:00.000-07:00

so i camped out. and thought i'd go all out.

it rocked.

highlights:

- my best friend and her sister coming down from virginia bch/baltimore.
- silent disco
- NIN's last us show
- rodrigo y gabriella
- silent disco
- having tons of adrenaline all weekend to be up till 4am only to crash HARD sunday night.
- not a care in the world in the bonnaroo bubble.
- dancing effed up alien man/thing at the silent disco at 2am (this was the best thing EVER)
- AND.........public enemy

2009-06-07T08:56:00.000-07:00

last night was ridiculous.

i got some great video footage. i was inspired for 115 minutes and then slept hard. off to work in 30. ohhhhhh, my easy and fun weekend job. i really do like you, although you make me exhausted beyond belief.

my move is getting closer and closer. just trying to breathe and not stress.

so much going on right now. can't wait to be back and sit in the sunshine.

making use of a blank wall........

2009-05-25T16:45:00.000-07:00

2009-05-15T16:24:00.000-07:00

this is the view from my office window right now.

i think it's pretty much been raining for 3 weeks now. or maybe 2. same thing.
at least we got a rainbow out of today's storm. i'm trying to go downtown to see soulja boy and offspring in a little, but i don't care about either one of them enough to get drenched by the on again/off again downpours.

funny things have been happening lately that remind me that people from your past can pop back in your life at any time. never think you won't talk or see someone again. i love it. love it.

xo.

brilliant.

2009-05-11T09:18:00.000-07:00

love it when people think outside of the box!

still in need of some stimulation.....

2009-05-06T13:54:00.000-07:00

PRONTO!!!!! :)

not all wanderers are lost??

2009-05-02T20:36:00.001-07:00

well............maybe i am.

2009-05-02T20:22:00.000-07:00

i haven't really loved someone's work in a long time, but I absolutely love this artist!!

http://www.danielleduer.com

i haven't been writing. i am busier than busy and my brain is usually mush. time for some stimulation REAL SOON. whatever is supposed to happen will happen. I'm sorta along for the ride.

i'm bored with things and looking at going to italy and santorini for 2 weeks by myself.

clear my head.

2009-04-08T08:09:00.000-07:00

things i love right now:

pineapple
sunshine
my stomach finally feeling better today
the thousands of mating birds outside of our building (weird)
breaking up the monotony but staying on track
the kids growing

i miss mi familia. gotta find a way to sneak away from town and get up to pittsburgh.

actually, gotta find a way to just get out of town more. period.

i've decided to jump out of a plane on my birthday. the planning has begun.

2009-04-06T20:34:00.000-07:00

amy and i think we solved all the worlds' problems in a little under an hour and a half on the phone tonight.

if only everyone "got it" like we do. ;)

i'm a lost solider right now. fighting for something that i'm not even sure is the right choice. fighting with conviction.

against what no one else in my family thinks is the right thing for me. shocker. and they are usually right. that's the funny part. but i follow my heart. even though it's usually wrong. it hasn't been the most helpful gps in life, but it guides me to many odd and random adventures.

i have a hard shell again. and i'm not sure i'm going to let anyone in again for a while. why are relationships such a thing of the past and people are so effed up now a days? tough times for a hopeless romantic that loves to love.

i've decided to givie my love out in other ways these days. as if i'm not busy enough working 2 jobs i am now the co-chair for lollipop theater's "rhythm of hope" organization. once a month we will be going into the vanderbilt children's hospital with musicians and teaching the kids about rhythm, pitch, etc and creating songs. i'm really excited about it. they are based in la, but we are bringing it to nashville. i love making people happy, and if it helps them escape for an hour of their day of laying in a hospital bed i'll do whatever to put a smile on their face.

our first event is next thurs.

send good vibes.

xoxo.

an-he-la + jewstun = fun night.

2009-04-06T20:30:00.001-07:00

2009-03-30T07:40:00.000-07:00

the lighting was amazing this morning.

so i captured it.

every monday i spend most of the morning slacking. it's my little break after working all weekend.

time for another vacation. nyc, here i come. it's not really a vacation, but it's at least an escape.

makes so much sense.

2009-03-29T20:22:00.000-07:00

"Absence Is To Love, What The Wind Is To Fire, When It’s a Small Fire The Wind Kills It But When It’s a Real Fire It Intensifies It."

2009-03-20T20:02:00.000-07:00

signed up for twitter. don't know why. i'm not really into it, but i signed up.

tomorrow starts my 7 day grind again. i guess i'm ready for it. i'll just continue to look at my savings account grow for that extra push on saturdays and sundays to roll out of bed.

nyc 4 weeks from today.

i'm looking forward to escaping from nashville again.

then la to go check out apartments in mar vista. i like busy. busy is good.

monday i start with a personal trainer. looking forward to breaking the monotony of my gym routine and being pushed even further. i'm addicted to the adrenaline rush.

i miss my family.
and i miss some other things.

but i'm okay. and.

i'm blessed.

i had a little too much to drink in mexico and......

2009-03-15T15:36:00.000-07:00

how angela got her groove back.......

2009-03-14T18:04:00.000-07:00

good tequila, vodka, a 7 bedroom villa overlooking the ocean, and beto (beh-to). ;)

vivir la buena vida!!

2009-03-01T07:21:00.000-08:00

things have been crazy. i'm not sure how people work 7 days a week because they HAVE to. i've been on the verge of mental meltdown. blake and jaime had their baby and so this week i had to pull double duty routing dates, booking shows, and pulling in offers (along with my assistant stuff i do on a daily basis). all for a good cause as i told myself while holding "evie" (eh -vee) on my lunch break wednesday afternoon. what an angel.

i told justin if it weren't for me going to mexico next weekend and getting 9 days off he'd need to admit me to a mental facility. ha. seriously.

i'm always amazed what we are given to handle in life, and the strong push through because they know there will be an end to it. a light.

my light will be drinking tequila by the infiniti pool next sunday. and probably monday, wednesday and thursday as well. (tuesday i'll be in the water swimming with the dolphins). ;)

i'll have a bunch of new photos to post soon. working with some friends on a little project.

time to get ready for work......

xo.

back to bangs.....

2009-03-01T07:18:00.001-08:00

and so i added a little......

2009-02-17T18:35:00.001-08:00

I'm going to my first class tonight.

2009-02-02T16:09:00.001-08:00

Kinda excited.....

this tattoo is amazing.

2009-01-28T21:14:00.001-08:00

2009-01-22T21:58:00.000-08:00

"I firmly believe that any man's finest hour, the greatest fulfillment of all that he holds dear, is that moment when he has worked his heart out in a good cause and lies exhausted on the field of battle - victorious."

2009-01-22T13:21:00.001-08:00

CURRENTLY EXPERIENCING WRITER'S BLOCK.

TIME TO CLOSE THE CURTAIN FOR AWHILE.

BE BACK AFTER MEXICO....hopefully refreshed!

xo.

is this seriously on the news???

2009-01-13T15:49:00.001-08:00

only in the south.

seriously, i'm at a loss of words.

2009-01-12T20:36:00.001-08:00

i love love.

it's my biggest weakness!

2009-01-12T16:06:00.000-08:00

i am a snake.

2009-01-12T12:20:00.000-08:00

2009 Prediction:

The Snake has an incredibly favorable year ahead. The year of the Ox provides many opportunities for the Snake to fulfill long awaited career goals and achieve more than he/she ever imagined. Your wisdom and patience are tools that prove successful in all aspects of your life. Relationships could be taken to new heights and deep and meaningful friendships are acquired. This year proves to be one of action, the year that all of your planning and waiting pay off for you. The later months prove to be especially successful, tying a year of arduous work into an extremely blissful culmination.

I've had a feeling for the last 5 years that this is going to be a huge year for me in every aspect. So.........let's go. :)

2009-01-09T19:47:00.001-08:00

"your mystery winds me up to be playful......"

new year's resolutions:

2009-01-05T20:09:00.000-08:00

1. get back on my old workout regimen.
2. love again even though i'm scared to.
3. keep myself focused and on track to move next december.
4. try not to eat processed foods.
5. do pilates once a week.
6. smile at strangers more.
7. try not to complain about crappy stuff that happens at work.

and

8. make a book on - http://www.blurb.com - with some amazing subject matter i'm going to shoot.

we'll see how it all goes.

lots of love!

xo.

2008-12-31T18:31:00.001-08:00

Goodbye 2008.....

You will not be missed.

xoxo.

yes please.....

2008-12-28T18:29:00.000-08:00

i'd like him or someone just like him.

that'd be great, thanks.

"she works hard for the money...."

2008-12-27T18:30:00.000-08:00

introducing my new bag. i've been looking for something new for the last year. and......ladies and gentlemen.....it has been found.

i'm rockin the messenger style again. ahhh, the smell of leather.

no feliz blah de dah for me.....

2008-12-25T20:15:00.001-08:00

i thought i was going to be sad today being alone.

last year i was in an airplane and airports all christmas day long only to be ditched by s once i got to la (insert red flag).

this year the weather was perfect, the food was great, and my friend's lake house was beautiful as always.

what a difference a year makes.

very merry merry......

xo.

who knew something on a banana could make you smile so much.....

2008-12-21T21:37:00.000-08:00

caa christmas party.

2008-12-19T10:10:00.001-08:00

a wonderful night, with wonderful co-workers.

too many photos to share.

my favorites.

merry christmas!!

xoxo.

i sleep in a cloud.....

2008-12-18T20:41:00.000-08:00

seriously. look.....

2008-12-16T20:53:00.001-08:00

I'm a little bit of sad and a little bit of happy.

I just went through and read all of my blogs from the beginning. Summer 2007. It's been almost a year and a half since I started this thing. As an outlet for my creativity. As an updater for all my friends that live here, there and everywhere. And as a record of all the little moments that were captured from my camera and from my head. This last year has been a crazy year of growth, lessons (many lessons), love and hurt.

And now the year is coming to an end. Thank God! I am SO ready for the freshness of 09'.

I think I finished off 08' with complete class.

*Debt-free (sorry I've said it twice now, but I'm so happy).
*A second job (exhausted, but feelin' good).
*A plan (that I'm totally rockin' so far).
*And lots of money in my savings account.

Don't mess with me when I have my mind set on something...... ;)

2009 is going to be the best year of my life so far.

Bring it!

Good news today!!!!!

2008-12-15T19:59:00.000-08:00

1. I am officially 100% debt-free!!!!!

and

2. We found out what days we are going to Mexico.......March 8 -13. There is a light.

Yaaaaaaaaaay!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

adventures in shopping....

2008-12-10T20:13:00.001-08:00

FOUND: a short, sassy bling skirt (that i would never wear in public) but would rock for a photo shoot in a heart beat.
NEEDED (and found): a sweet pair of pajama pants to get me through housesitting in a GARGANTUOUS, probably cold house in a couple weeks.
LEARNED: that most of the new sunglasses that are out right now are ug-ly. i think i'll stick with my aviators. oh, and even mannequins have butt cracks. who knew??

quite a successful night.

xo.

oh my gosh!!!!

2008-12-07T18:44:00.000-08:00

i want to adopt him SO bad....

i can really feel it....

2008-12-05T19:40:00.001-08:00

con - trast

2008-12-03T09:06:00.001-08:00

“Philosophy always requires something more, requires the eternal, the true, in contrast to which even the fullest existence as such is but a happy moment.”

2008-11-29T21:18:00.000-08:00

Dear Every female in the world,

Please never put these on your body. They are in no way, shape or form "cute," "trendy," "cool" or anything but to make fun of. Only put these on if it is part of a Halloween costume next year. But THAT'S IT. People won't be staring at you because they want to know where you got your tights. They will only be wondering why on earth you ever went out in public with those on.

You'll thank me for the blunt honesty one day.

Love,

Your friendly fashionista

2008-11-29T20:43:00.000-08:00

I'm in a weird head space right now. Everything seems to be so busy busy busy and I have way too many thoughts living in my head that I'm trying to solve. I guess you really can't "solve" thoughts, but you get what I was saying there.

Life is funny and frustrating. Equally.

Mexico needs to get here soon!!!

2008-11-23T05:34:00.001-08:00

Have you ever been so busy and around so many people at an event, job or party that you can't sleep well because you think you are still there talking to them??

I'm wide awake at 7 am. I could hardly keep my eyes open last night when I got home from the first day of my second job.

What am I thinking?? That is what was running through my mind as my insides shook from the temp outside at 8:15 pm when I got off work. Everything ached. My neck. My ankles. My back. I'm not used to standing around without sitting for 10 hours. My life for the next year suddenly flashed in front of me last night as I came home to a messy apartment. Saturday is my cleaning day, but I have NO time anymore. Up at 7 am and home at 8:30 pm too tired to think about anything but sleep.

And today I do it all over again.

I'm not complaining. I feel completely blessed that I got this second job. A lot of people don't even have one job in this country right now and I have two. Both which pay really well. The sacrifice will be free time. The gain will be a huge savings account that I will need next year.

I'm scared to move back to California. I'm so scared that it will be like before. I'm in an in-between place right now and I've had to let everything go and just ride the wave. See where it takes me.

I just wish that whatever the plan is for me in this life would hurry up and take form. I'm tired of the in-between....

2008-11-16T20:34:00.000-08:00

"How do you fight gravity in a planet that insists that love is like falling and falling is like this."

2008-11-16T16:31:00.000-08:00

I want to do a photo shoot in the Juicy Couture dressing room. It's amazing. Large. With incredible lighting. Lots of details.

I'm obsessed.

This week starts my 75 hour work weeks. I'm a little nervous to be working this much without any days off. Energy drinks and I may become great friends.....

Xo.

2008-11-13T14:38:00.000-08:00

Dear cowards, gamblers, liars, addicts, basically losers -

I'm a little too old to put up with you coming into my life anymore. I need someone honest, stable and mature.

Thanks for nothing (well except showing me what I don't want in my life) and good luck with all those issues that will bring someone else down.

Love,

Angela

2008-11-08T07:11:00.000-08:00

I'm feeling a little anxiety.

I've been looking for places in Santa Monica. So small and so much money.

But I told myself that when I moved back I'd be at the beach and this beach is the closest to my office. :(

So I'm throwing this out into the universe -

I need to find someone to move out there with me or to move in with in the next year....

Any takers???

I'm kinda big time....

2008-11-04T08:59:00.000-08:00

Or not really.

But I'm representing channel 4 news tonight at 2 of the precincts.

Looking forward to all of this to be over tomorrow.

My very UN-creative Halloween.....

2008-10-31T13:20:00.001-07:00

I waited till the last minute and ended up with NOTHING to choose from.

Hence - Silver glitter balls.

Yes, that's it.

Happy Halloween!!!

xoxo.

2008-10-30T19:17:00.001-07:00

"Decide what you want, decide what you are willing to exchange for it. Establish your priorities and go to work."

I love this!!!!!

2008-10-30T16:24:00.000-07:00

B just gave me the coolest gift I've received in awhile....

Flying Wish Paper!

Make a wish.

Set it on fire.

And send it off into the universe.

Brilliant!

~ Now off to try to find a Halloween costume.....

2008-10-25T21:19:00.001-07:00

Far Away Blues - Joe Purdy

2008-10-19T17:35:00.000-07:00

I've been so good lately. I used to be pretty much an EVERY weekend shopper. Always a different outfit on.

Then I had an epiphany.

And I haven't shopped in months. I mean months and months. I've been putting everything into my CA moving account. I must say, it's a pretty damn good feeling to be so on top of it in the money department (knock on wood).

Well, then yesterday happened. And I found this -----> Note the beautiful headband in my hair.

"Fall/Winter piece." "Fall/Winter piece." It was calling my name. What was I supposed to do???

So I bought it.

At least if I'm not going to have any new shirts, etc I'm going to have a bit of uniqueness........right??

;)